Its been quit a while since I last blogged. I know thats not good, but I have journaled on my own. The reason for my blog today is that Erica inspired me to write again. She wrote such a wonderful blog about me and my boot camp that it really touched me. This is what I have been waiting for ...... to touch others lives again and for them to touch mine. Those 3 ladies that I started working with again really helped me see my strengths again and to use them. To go out there and stand tall with confidence. Approaching others has become easier. I started with a new group this morning. I happened to email one of the ladies that used to come to my classes. Let her know that I was putting a boot camps together around town. If she knew of a few ladies that would be interested then let me know I would travel to them. She rounded up 6 ladies in a week and I had 2 that had emailed me about training again. I had 8 ladies for class. I tell ya it was like heaven again. The things that make me happy!!! I know I have to prove to these ladies that I am worth their time because I offered the whole month of dec. that all bootcamps are free!!! To reach out and meet new people and give to those that need motivation through the holidays.
I also am working with the lady in charge of centinnel park and lions park on putting together a scedule for boot camps, so to make a long story short!!! I am on my way back to the strong person that was hidding during my healing months. I hope to have come out learning from this life lesson of boundries , challenges and hurt. I know that I am on my way to becoming that successful business women that I have always longed to be.
One more thing. I am taking my final friday for my life coaching. I am very excited to be able to incorporate my coaching skills into my training business. I can't wait!!!!!
Love and strength,
Jen
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
Thankful for!!! New beginning!!!
I hope everyone had a great weekend. I did , but didn't lol no we went camping and I love to camp. It just very hard with 6 boys that are very competitive and don't like each other lol... I find that all 6 of these boys could go run around and be boys, play out in the woods, go venture together ...like we all did growing up. Things sure have changed. I think in society we have a schedule every day and these boys are so used to being told lets go do this , do that..... heaven for bid they have to find something to do with themselves. They did , but it seemed they got bored so easy so they would just sit and fight. Or find a new game to play and some one was always cheating within in 2min into the game. You know the brotherly love, but I did have a good time and it was very beautiful this weekend. I tried to enjoy nature peacefully at times, but not much peace around our camp site. Ok got that out of my system!!!
I did a lot last week with figuring out this business stuff..... wrote a letter to my partner on how things are going and how I she makes me feel.... more boundary stuff!!!! I designed my own website. Still needs a lot of work , but I didn't it!!!!I decided I was going to try and meet as many people as I can this month. Running a few boot camps in different areas hoping to do this!!!! I decided that the whole month of Dec. is for giving.... I am giving my boot camps out for free. Hoping to touch someones life that is in need of help. Not having money to get that motivation and support they need through the holidays. I know how hard emotional issues are associated with weight, but the holidays put a whole new twist on things. Here is my website and if you know anyone that needs that support please send them my website. I trying to place my self out there in the world as much as possible and hope those in need will be guided my way!!!
I started with my first group of 3 today. It felt so good just to help others and it helps me in so many ways. To feel I am worthy enough to help others .... puts a smile on my face. I need these girls as much as they need me!!! Maybe more. I needed that jump again that taste in my mouth of my souls purpose!!!! I have been doing my work that it takes to get over a few of my own hurdles of success. Knowing I can succeed even if I have had past failures. I am ready to take on the world in my own way and in my own time. The time that god has allowed me to heal my own issues that will help my clients heal theirs too!! I am so excited to be getting close to finishing my life coach program. This won't be a failure of mine. I will finish it and feel so proud that I did!!!
A quote that really touched me today:
Formal education will make you a living.
Self education will make you a fortune.
-Jim Rohn
Love and Strength,
Jen
I did a lot last week with figuring out this business stuff..... wrote a letter to my partner on how things are going and how I she makes me feel.... more boundary stuff!!!! I designed my own website. Still needs a lot of work , but I didn't it!!!!I decided I was going to try and meet as many people as I can this month. Running a few boot camps in different areas hoping to do this!!!! I decided that the whole month of Dec. is for giving.... I am giving my boot camps out for free. Hoping to touch someones life that is in need of help. Not having money to get that motivation and support they need through the holidays. I know how hard emotional issues are associated with weight, but the holidays put a whole new twist on things. Here is my website and if you know anyone that needs that support please send them my website. I trying to place my self out there in the world as much as possible and hope those in need will be guided my way!!!
I started with my first group of 3 today. It felt so good just to help others and it helps me in so many ways. To feel I am worthy enough to help others .... puts a smile on my face. I need these girls as much as they need me!!! Maybe more. I needed that jump again that taste in my mouth of my souls purpose!!!! I have been doing my work that it takes to get over a few of my own hurdles of success. Knowing I can succeed even if I have had past failures. I am ready to take on the world in my own way and in my own time. The time that god has allowed me to heal my own issues that will help my clients heal theirs too!! I am so excited to be getting close to finishing my life coach program. This won't be a failure of mine. I will finish it and feel so proud that I did!!!
A quote that really touched me today:
Formal education will make you a living.
Self education will make you a fortune.
-Jim Rohn
Love and Strength,
Jen
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
The holidays.... I can make it this year
As the holidays approach I find myself feeling that addiction creeping up on me.
To feel the need of my family to be back together. Feeling the need of a family that has a father and mother.........the family that I have known for 20yrs. I don't want this creeping up on me. I have been determined to love the holidays for the first time in 10 years. I have been living for this time. Over the years I had been so sad , not wanting the holidays to go on. Today is my youngest sons birthday... 10 years old. I can't believe it. I lived 5 years straight in my life of being pregnant with my little guys and realising he is 10 today just makes me hurt. Why would it hurt I ask???? Well to make a long story short........ on dec. 23rd 1997 the year before Mason was born I lost a little girl named Amanda..... that is the reason why my holidays have been so up in the air. The holidays you try and be happy for the kids , but even my boys know what they had lost. They were little but they bring up their sister every year. I know I have come far in my life of healing ......knowing this year I want to be different. To love the holidays again. I feel the pain starting to linger in the near distance.... with my ex trying to talk more to me and expressing his pain. I want to reach out to him , but know its not right. I know he is hurting so bad right now......he has never release any pain over the years. Atleast I have done some kind of healing to understand and except my past. He is finally coming to terms that he needs help.......... which I am happy he is, but I have to stay strong and make it this year. Last year was the turning point for me and my boys. I had hit rock bottom......... I had no money to buy them presents.....I sat in my bed and cried christmas eve and new years eve. Something I had to do. To be ok with myself being alone.... I toke my boys to church the first time ever on their sisters birthday last year.....all by myself. Boy was that tough. I wasn't brought up going to chruch so that was new to me, but I didn't it for me and my boys. I cherish that day... it was a new beginning of my life as a strong independent women that will make her mark in this world. As I sit here today and struggle through my lifes challenges...... i sit back and think of that day. I shouldn't hide behind my tears anymore. I need to stop with the road blocks and jump!!!!! I know I have jumped , but you know it has been a long time coming over the last 4 years and I am still battling the addiction that is so deep inside. The addiction of my family I so never wanted to end. I know in my heart that is what God wanted to be, but to feel the pain that so lingers so deep inside of me........makes me wonder ........... I thought I was free!!!!
To feel the need of my family to be back together. Feeling the need of a family that has a father and mother.........the family that I have known for 20yrs. I don't want this creeping up on me. I have been determined to love the holidays for the first time in 10 years. I have been living for this time. Over the years I had been so sad , not wanting the holidays to go on. Today is my youngest sons birthday... 10 years old. I can't believe it. I lived 5 years straight in my life of being pregnant with my little guys and realising he is 10 today just makes me hurt. Why would it hurt I ask???? Well to make a long story short........ on dec. 23rd 1997 the year before Mason was born I lost a little girl named Amanda..... that is the reason why my holidays have been so up in the air. The holidays you try and be happy for the kids , but even my boys know what they had lost. They were little but they bring up their sister every year. I know I have come far in my life of healing ......knowing this year I want to be different. To love the holidays again. I feel the pain starting to linger in the near distance.... with my ex trying to talk more to me and expressing his pain. I want to reach out to him , but know its not right. I know he is hurting so bad right now......he has never release any pain over the years. Atleast I have done some kind of healing to understand and except my past. He is finally coming to terms that he needs help.......... which I am happy he is, but I have to stay strong and make it this year. Last year was the turning point for me and my boys. I had hit rock bottom......... I had no money to buy them presents.....I sat in my bed and cried christmas eve and new years eve. Something I had to do. To be ok with myself being alone.... I toke my boys to church the first time ever on their sisters birthday last year.....all by myself. Boy was that tough. I wasn't brought up going to chruch so that was new to me, but I didn't it for me and my boys. I cherish that day... it was a new beginning of my life as a strong independent women that will make her mark in this world. As I sit here today and struggle through my lifes challenges...... i sit back and think of that day. I shouldn't hide behind my tears anymore. I need to stop with the road blocks and jump!!!!! I know I have jumped , but you know it has been a long time coming over the last 4 years and I am still battling the addiction that is so deep inside. The addiction of my family I so never wanted to end. I know in my heart that is what God wanted to be, but to feel the pain that so lingers so deep inside of me........makes me wonder ........... I thought I was free!!!!
Monday, November 24, 2008
How Life Coaching really works!!!
I first want to say I am sorry for not posting. I was in Dallas with Chaise (my second son for hockey), but I did write everyday and boy I am still releasing a lot of past crap!!! LOL
Its amazing how things I didn't think bothered me in the past keep creeping up and want to come out. Yea I would like to tell people how I really feel , but for some reason I stop myself and just write. I think I am starting to think before speaking. Which is a first.
I want to really share my son Chaise's life coaching journey. Meaning how I see the change in him. I can't explain how it makes me feel to see the change and see the will and desire in him. The first in a long time. The smile on his face, the wanting to succeed. I am sure I have mentioned before that 2 of my boys have had the opportunity to be working with David for about 4-5 weeks. Chaise since he was little has dealt with self esteem issues. I have always wondered ....why .... I never made him feel in adequate or put him down, but I know i am not the only one in his life. As the years have gone by Chaise has been playing AAA hockey. He is one of the lucky kids .... meaning Chaise has so much talent without even trying or training for, but his lack of confidence has really set him back the last 2 years. Well me and his father agreed at this age and level if he doesn't play with his heart 100% of the time he has to move down to a lower level. First off its way way to expensive, the kids at this level are all excellent player and play at 100% of the time or coach will let you know and your done. So by talking with him he really does want this but feels he doesn't deserve it. He would go out and play a great game to come back and play 3 bad games. Its not that he played bad it was that you could see he showed no effort or desire to play. That is where I was so blessed to have taken the life coaching coarse and said to Chaise this is what we are going to do. We are going to meet with David just one time. If you don't want to see him anymore then you don't have to. Well he wasn't a happy camper, but he meet with him and wanted to see him again. YEA......... to make a long story short. Chaise went out there on that rink and played 110%. His whole line got sat most of the 4 games because of lack of effort on their part, but not my Chaise he moved to another line and scored a goal his first game!!!!!!! The first all year , then he scored the second game!!! I couldn't believe it and he had so many more opportunities!!! As we entered the 3rd game he was out there hustling ........... he got kicked in his knee from another kid and intented to do it...meaning the kid got kicked out of that game and the last game because it was such a dirty hit. Well Chaise went down crying and was down for about 5mins. I helped coach get him off the ice and look at it . It was very swollen and he was hurting very very bad. We put ice on it and gave him some advil. It wasn't broken but we couldn't do anything till we got home and go to dr. on monday. As he sits there he looks at me with tears in his eyes and says mom put my helmet on I want to sit on the bench with my team I want to watch them play. That was the eye opener of how life coaching is truly working....not just seeing him play from the heart , but not to sit and mope around like before and act like he is dieing or will never play ever again. He was so positive !!!!!!!!!!! After the game he started walking more and more on his leg and saying how bad he wants to go out and play. I couldn't believe it!!!!!!! As my ex would always call him ............. hypoconderact........ well you know what my baby is changing, he is feeling good about him self, he is smiling , he is excited about his love of hockey again, he is seeing how he can do what those other kids can even if I always have told him he can. I am seeing my own son jump in that fire with his own 2 feet and I tell you what !!! If that doesn't motivate a mom to jump in her own self then I don't know what will!!!!!!!!! It sure shows me if you do your work and really want your dreams you sure can have it!!!!
You have to believe to succeed!!!!!!
Love and Strength, Jen
As my inspirational quote sure showed me this weekend ....... Your will must be stronger than your skill!!!!
Its amazing how things I didn't think bothered me in the past keep creeping up and want to come out. Yea I would like to tell people how I really feel , but for some reason I stop myself and just write. I think I am starting to think before speaking. Which is a first.
I want to really share my son Chaise's life coaching journey. Meaning how I see the change in him. I can't explain how it makes me feel to see the change and see the will and desire in him. The first in a long time. The smile on his face, the wanting to succeed. I am sure I have mentioned before that 2 of my boys have had the opportunity to be working with David for about 4-5 weeks. Chaise since he was little has dealt with self esteem issues. I have always wondered ....why .... I never made him feel in adequate or put him down, but I know i am not the only one in his life. As the years have gone by Chaise has been playing AAA hockey. He is one of the lucky kids .... meaning Chaise has so much talent without even trying or training for, but his lack of confidence has really set him back the last 2 years. Well me and his father agreed at this age and level if he doesn't play with his heart 100% of the time he has to move down to a lower level. First off its way way to expensive, the kids at this level are all excellent player and play at 100% of the time or coach will let you know and your done. So by talking with him he really does want this but feels he doesn't deserve it. He would go out and play a great game to come back and play 3 bad games. Its not that he played bad it was that you could see he showed no effort or desire to play. That is where I was so blessed to have taken the life coaching coarse and said to Chaise this is what we are going to do. We are going to meet with David just one time. If you don't want to see him anymore then you don't have to. Well he wasn't a happy camper, but he meet with him and wanted to see him again. YEA......... to make a long story short. Chaise went out there on that rink and played 110%. His whole line got sat most of the 4 games because of lack of effort on their part, but not my Chaise he moved to another line and scored a goal his first game!!!!!!! The first all year , then he scored the second game!!! I couldn't believe it and he had so many more opportunities!!! As we entered the 3rd game he was out there hustling ........... he got kicked in his knee from another kid and intented to do it...meaning the kid got kicked out of that game and the last game because it was such a dirty hit. Well Chaise went down crying and was down for about 5mins. I helped coach get him off the ice and look at it . It was very swollen and he was hurting very very bad. We put ice on it and gave him some advil. It wasn't broken but we couldn't do anything till we got home and go to dr. on monday. As he sits there he looks at me with tears in his eyes and says mom put my helmet on I want to sit on the bench with my team I want to watch them play. That was the eye opener of how life coaching is truly working....not just seeing him play from the heart , but not to sit and mope around like before and act like he is dieing or will never play ever again. He was so positive !!!!!!!!!!! After the game he started walking more and more on his leg and saying how bad he wants to go out and play. I couldn't believe it!!!!!!! As my ex would always call him ............. hypoconderact........ well you know what my baby is changing, he is feeling good about him self, he is smiling , he is excited about his love of hockey again, he is seeing how he can do what those other kids can even if I always have told him he can. I am seeing my own son jump in that fire with his own 2 feet and I tell you what !!! If that doesn't motivate a mom to jump in her own self then I don't know what will!!!!!!!!! It sure shows me if you do your work and really want your dreams you sure can have it!!!!
You have to believe to succeed!!!!!!
Love and Strength, Jen
As my inspirational quote sure showed me this weekend ....... Your will must be stronger than your skill!!!!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
INSPIRATIONAL QUOTE
Champions aren't made in gyms.Champions are made from something they have deep inside them a desire, a dream or a vision. They have the skill and the will, but the will must be stronger than the skill.
-Mohammad Ali
I wanted to share this. I thought it really touched me right now.
I will post more later!!
Love and strength,
Jen
-Mohammad Ali
I wanted to share this. I thought it really touched me right now.
I will post more later!!
Love and strength,
Jen
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I thought I could take it!!
Here it comes!!! The slowness of my negative thoughts creaping up as the day goes by. I start out strong with this issue of being let down. To finding my thoughts starting to turn slowly. As I start to notice my shoulders rounding, my head drooping and wondering why can't I just make it go right just one time. I just want that one opportunity to help people again. Just to feel that feeling again. To see someone smile when I use my gifts of love, committment and modivation to help them succedd. As I sit here wondering why would I not believe in myself. Why would I not think I have what it takes to do that again. I start to see feel myself close off and want to hide. To not face what it is out there that is calling my name. I can't stop just because someone takes that opportunity away...... that I didn't even truly have. I have a place sitting waiting for me to use. To find those that need my help. To find those that truly know .....what I do know down deep....... is that I long to work again ....... to feel good again.......... to see myself as a true gift...... and not to doubt this anymore. I am asking god to release this pain of self doubt...and guide me to the true me. I know I am in there . I can feel my head peak out for a day, to run back in and wait on another way. By writing these blogs sure helps me see things that really do truly hurt me. One day its good, another day its not. I know once I find my way, I will be here to stay!!!
As I open my heart to those that read this blog. I thank you once again for taking the time to be there for me through my pain, through my joy, through my love of finding what I once was before. The strength to see I really have it in side of me. Will peak back out .... which I hope one day for eternity!!!
As I open my heart to those that read this blog. I thank you once again for taking the time to be there for me through my pain, through my joy, through my love of finding what I once was before. The strength to see I really have it in side of me. Will peak back out .... which I hope one day for eternity!!!
Another Road block!!! But I can take it
As I mentioned a few days ago about getting a chance to train some kids at my kids school. Well how did I guess.......... thats not happening. LOL Don't laugh David!!!!! Yea I am staying positive!!! I am not going to bet myself up. It had nothing to do with me, but I guess I should never say anything till things are 110% . Learned my lesson. The skatium is a state building and he had to get the final ok from them. I guess they are re-evaluating and cutting 41 jobs and they might send someone there for $7 an hr. to sit. In my eyes how does that help those kids. He said he wouldn't know till later in Dec.,but the city says things one day and turns around and says anther thing another day. My hopes aren't gone. I just keep going and pursue other avenues!! It's ok. I am going to go bigger than the skatium anyways LOLOLOLOL I will get into the lee county schools instead and work with all those kids. LOLOL I know we have to have big goals.
I want to say I am getting really excited to be getting close to finishing our certifications. I hope everyone is working hard and excited like me. I can't wait to get out there and really help those in need. I am sorry I won't be able to join everyone on thursday. I appointments for my boys on thursday and leave early on friday for Dallas (hockey). I won't be able to post because my lap top is not working right!!! I will journal though in my book!!! I hope we can all come up with a time for the master mind group that David would like us to start!! I hope everyone has great day and miss hanging out with everyone!!! Whats good next week????????
Love and Strength ,
Jen
I want to say I am getting really excited to be getting close to finishing our certifications. I hope everyone is working hard and excited like me. I can't wait to get out there and really help those in need. I am sorry I won't be able to join everyone on thursday. I appointments for my boys on thursday and leave early on friday for Dallas (hockey). I won't be able to post because my lap top is not working right!!! I will journal though in my book!!! I hope we can all come up with a time for the master mind group that David would like us to start!! I hope everyone has great day and miss hanging out with everyone!!! Whats good next week????????
Love and Strength ,
Jen
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